Turn around

P: come, lets talk in person
M:(heh? where are going to bring me?...bertanya2 tapi ngikut juga)

Then, at that quiet corner...

P: T has told me what is coming to your mind. Please let me know why you come to that point?
M: It's a bit difficult to explain as our mind set might be different.
P: Understand. But one thing for sure, I don't want you to make a wrong dicision for a wrong reason.

P: If the main problem is A, we can work on it. But if your main concern is B, that will be another different story. And I can't say much about it.

P: Dont worry, everybody experience what you are experiencing now. Be patient, you just need to wait for your "turn around" point to come. And hups, that will change your life. you'll realize it later.
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Conclusion: there is no way to turn back, no way.
Sabar dan syukur...